Now what?!?!
One of my friends has a countdown to graduation on her Facebook page: 55 days. In 55 days, I will be a college graduate. I will be done with school and I will have a degree and a mountain of debt that I need to pay off. But how am I supposed to do that? My parents are already starting to pressure me about finding a job. I’ve made the mistake of making off-hand remarks about some of my friends and their internships. Why don’t I have an internship, my parents ask. Have I started looking for one? No. I haven’t done anything I’m “supposed” to do. I haven’t started a portfolio. I haven’t updated my resume. I haven’t even started looking for jobs because the pressure is too much for me to handle. I’m not even passing all my classes at the moment, so that whole graduating thing is slightly in jeopardy. I’ve been putting off thinking about this because it scares me to death. But 55 days is nothing and May will be here in the blink of an eye. Part of me (most of me) wants to just hide under the covers and pretend this isn’t happening. But it’s too late for that. So instead, I’m going to do what I do best: dive head first into pure, anxiety-ridden panic.
